oh how fast time flies. A blink here and there, it's the coming of the weekend. I can't wait to meet BF tomorrow! Jeeeez it's been too long! Feels like ages. Miss him like crazymadness. Ohhh.. he's got something to buy for himself in his mind..and i know what it is. hehehe! Oh well, he deserves it after working so hard. *you poor poor honey you, Hugggzzz*
As for me.. Oh God... ok i now realise that my final year results/classifications are gonna be out come MonDay!!! Should i clock off work? Or should i just wait for SIM to snail-mail me... arghh!! The raging emotions, the thumping heartbeats, the jittery fingers! Sheesh, it's that time of the year again for me. I'm freaking out here. Can i make it? And if i did, will i do well in it? Oh man.
Coleague:"So, have you considered sending in your resume for that perm position we have here in our department?"
Me:"Ermm.... hmmm..... i..... not... sure."
Coleague:"You've seen people coming for interview in the conference room right in front of your desk, don't you?"
Me:"Errr ... yah."
Coleague:"So how?"
Me:"I don't know what exactly it is i want in my job-scope right now."
WHAM BAM! A door of opportunity slams hard right there in my face. Was i stupid for not applying for that position amidst the persuasions from my elder colleagues? Hmmm.... Many thoughts raced in my mind. Yes, i am fickle, i know. I shouldn't be.... especially in this oh-its-so-difficult-to-look-for-a-job world. Arrgh! In the end, it's what I want. Not my parents, not anybody else. I ask myself time and time again what is it that I want. But my mind always always drew up a blank piece of crap with a few scribbles of doodles here and there. It's so difficult to choose one favourite when there are so many of my likings. It doesn't make it any easier that the favourites have to be on two extreme ends! I love to draw, i love sketches, i love designing, i love art! But at the same time, i love Maths and numbers and figures too! Teaching them to kids is my next choice! Then there's a deep part of me that likes travelling. And also not forgetting my interest in IT and computers! So how? BF himself has found his passion in his job in Nike Retail. WoW, he's soooo enjoying his job sooo soooo much ok!! So great for BF! Oh honey.
As for me.. Oh God... ok i now realise that my final year results/classifications are gonna be out come MonDay!!! Should i clock off work? Or should i just wait for SIM to snail-mail me... arghh!! The raging emotions, the thumping heartbeats, the jittery fingers! Sheesh, it's that time of the year again for me. I'm freaking out here. Can i make it? And if i did, will i do well in it? Oh man.
Coleague:"So, have you considered sending in your resume for that perm position we have here in our department?"
Me:"Ermm.... hmmm..... i..... not... sure."
Coleague:"You've seen people coming for interview in the conference room right in front of your desk, don't you?"
Me:"Errr ... yah."
Coleague:"So how?"
Me:"I don't know what exactly it is i want in my job-scope right now."
WHAM BAM! A door of opportunity slams hard right there in my face. Was i stupid for not applying for that position amidst the persuasions from my elder colleagues? Hmmm.... Many thoughts raced in my mind. Yes, i am fickle, i know. I shouldn't be.... especially in this oh-its-so-difficult-to-look-for-a-job world. Arrgh! In the end, it's what I want. Not my parents, not anybody else. I ask myself time and time again what is it that I want. But my mind always always drew up a blank piece of crap with a few scribbles of doodles here and there. It's so difficult to choose one favourite when there are so many of my likings. It doesn't make it any easier that the favourites have to be on two extreme ends! I love to draw, i love sketches, i love designing, i love art! But at the same time, i love Maths and numbers and figures too! Teaching them to kids is my next choice! Then there's a deep part of me that likes travelling. And also not forgetting my interest in IT and computers! So how? BF himself has found his passion in his job in Nike Retail. WoW, he's soooo enjoying his job sooo soooo much ok!! So great for BF! Oh honey.
Back to the previous topic, then again, i was told the company i work in has a damn high turnover rate. "Mostly people come and go. They just take this as a good stepping stone to work towards their future,"one said. "Oh that girl already resigned and she has just worked here for 3 months,"another said. Ouh Well, my mind map draws me to a decision. Continue as a Temp Staff till another door of opportunity comes aknockin'. Like one more wise person said,"Sapa yang nak pergi kasi duit gitu sajer?" (Who else want to give away money like that?") Hahahaha! Somehow, that sounds funny.
My musings stops here.
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